Skyscraper

woman.

 

 

You can take everything I have 
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

Another one of my favorite quotes is from Papa Roach: “our scars remind us that the past is real”. Scars do remind us that the past is real; every scar on our heart has a story just as scars on our bodies have one. The only difference is the scars on our hearts aren’t visible. It is so easy to judge people, the way they dress, the way they look, the way they act. But what most people don’t realize is that everyone has had challenges and heartaches and triumphs and failures. It’s part of human nature to judge others, it’s our way of categorizing people that we don’t know into something that makes sense to us, stereotyping. People don’t go walking around flaunting their mistakes and flaws or the hurt that they’ve felt. I know I sure haven’t.

You show me your’s, I’ll show you mine. As Eminem would say: “But you’d have to walk a thousand miles; In my shoes, just to see; What it’s like, to be me; I’ll be you, let’s trade shoes;  Just to see what it’d be like to; Feel your pain, you feel mine; Go inside each other’s minds; Just to see what we find..” I would never ask anyone to trade shoes with me to feel the pain and experiences I’ve gone through. Just as I would not want to live through anyone else’s. We all have pain. We all grow. We all change.

The picture above is so inspiring to me because every woman (and man) goes through so much in a lifetime: breakups, losing jobs, economic hardships, family drama, death, and so much more. But every time we’re knocked down, we rebuild ourselves into a stronger person. And to those who have hurt me, “go head and try to tear me down, I’ll be rising from the ground like a skyscraper”.  And one day I will have the confidence to say that I have rebuilt myself into a stronger me.

 

 

 

 

 

Vent#1

Life used to seem so much simpler. When we were children, all we had to worry about was school and extracurricular activities. Now we have school, work, and planning our entire future.  And if that isn’t stressful, we have personal lives to work through as well.

Why can’t we just tell others how we really feel? Why does it have to be so complicated? Why can’t it be as simple as “I like you”??

I’m a woman.

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To further add to this picture:

I’m goofy and immature at times, but most of the time, mature. I am clumsy and I snort when I laugh. I’m extremely sarcastic and having a mean side. I’m moody all the time. I’m grumpy first thing in the morning, especially early in the morning and/or when I haven’t had my coffee yet. I complain about a lot and think that I’m a princess. I love getting all dolled-up but also love being in sweats and a t-shirt. I’m insecure, but try to be confident. I want to be told that I’m pretty or beautiful, not hot. I want a guy to like me for me, not my body and for him to love all of my flaws as well as he loves my perks. I want him to hold my hand and kiss me all the time, cuddle with me, talk on the phone with me all night, sing like crazy in the car with me (especially country music!), open the door for me, act like a gentleman (always) and make others jealous of me. Every woman deserves their perfect man, no one should ever settle. And I’ll hold out for my perfect man.

Acts like summer, walks like rain

Drops of Jupiter by Train has always been one of my favorite songs. I saw this picture (below) on Pinterest this evening, and I just had to listen to it! The lyrics to the song have brought new meaning into my life: there are going to be changes, and sometimes we may put on a brave face, but deep down, we’re struggling. 

This has become more apparent to me, especially after having a recent conversation with someone very close to me. The roles we have chosen for ourselves can come with HUGE expectations and sometimes it’s hard to live up to those expectations. Some of us are taught that we have to “suffer in silence” and put on a brave face for those that we care about. And that is very unfortunate, because that is one of the hardest tasks to EVER ask of someone. 

I have already discussed change, but what I didn’t mention is just how hard change can be. As a full-time college student, we are expected to adapt to each professor in each class, and with that comes having different testing methods, different study habits, different types of projects, etc. And I don’t know if many people realize just how difficult that is, that we have to morph into different expectations for 4 or 5 or even 6 classes in one semester. And on top of school, trying to work and be financially responsible and follow society’s expectations of what “young adults” should or shouldn’t do. Being a young adult is extremely stressful, and we do the best that we can. And I’m proud of our generation and how hard we work to fulfill what is expected of us.

Lately, I feel as though I’m on a roller coaster, one day I’m okay, one day I’m not. I know that this is what’s expected after recent events, it’s just so crazy how many things have changed in a year, and in even just one month! At times, it seems as though my world has been turned upside down. I know it’s just an adjustment and that it’s time to focus on myself. I need some me time. I am so thankful and grateful for my family and friends who have been there for me, especially now. We all have our struggles in life, but it’s the people who are there to catch us when we fall that lead us down the right path.

Now that she’s back in the atmosphere 
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey 
She acts like summer and walks like rain 
Reminds me that there’s time a to change, hey, hey 
Since the return from her stay on the moon 
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey

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There is a time for change. And she’ll act like summer and walk like rain. And that’s okay.

Changes.

“People underestimate their capacity for change. There is never a right time to do a difficult thing.” -John Porter

Recently, I have undergone a huge change: adapting to the single life. And let me tell you, it has not been an easy task. My last relationship was wonderful and ended on really good terms, but long-distance was not meant for us. We both decided that is wasn’t working for either of us and that it was time to face the inevitable.

Change is never an easy thing, especially for people like me who like to have control over things. As unrealistic as that is, I had to make some adjustments in my life. I am a strong believer in “everything happens for a reason” and put my faith into knowing that my experiences will guide me down the path I was meant to follow. It is time for some “me time” and focus on school, work, family and friends. Change cannot be avoided, but how we deal with it is what makes us who we are. 

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